I’ve Been Gone & Here’s Why
I’ll tell you the truth – I’ve been avoiding you. I was kind of hoping we would just break up quietly and never speak of it again. It’s been so long since I wrote here and the longer it took me to jot something down, the less I felt like doing it.
The last few months have been exhilarating yet the most stressful ever. My husband and I have been trying to figure out our new lives as parents and what that means emotionally, physically (for me) and financially. It’s no secret that babies are expensive but like with everything else about being a first time parent, you think planning is the answer. We planned extensively for the little one and even then, we find that a few things come up here and there without ever expecting. For instance when I had to start supplementing with formula and she went through it like a hungry hippo! Or when I went back to work and suddenly breast pads and milk storage bags became another (costly) item on my shopping list. A lot of it has been learning on the job and the rest of it has been accepting that not everything works the way you want it to every time.
I quickly found myself hating my budget and resenting the fact that somehow things never quite added up at the end of the month no matter how meticulous I was. As a recovering control freak, this has been very difficult for me to do. I ended up getting strung out about things no one could have possibly predicted and that not even the gods themselves could control. So I did what people do – I spiralled. I spiralled into 5 years in the future where we couldn’t afford school fees, got kicked out of our home and moved in with my parents. All this because one month my shopping went over by 3,000 Kes. Crazy? Yes. Totally normal? Also yes. We can’t help but focus on the what ifs when things aren’t going our way. Its scary to imagine a future where you suddenly can’t provide. But the thing is though, you’re here and doing it so why dwell on a future that hasn’t happened?
So in the midst of all that, I found it difficult to offer anyone advice on money or money related issues. My own finances were so out of whack that I didn’t feel like The Value Mama. I felt like a sham. But this morning, with the help of some friends, I realised that everything I had done so far was still a pretty big deal. If it wasn’t for this blog, I wouldn’t have thought up some of the tips and tricks. And outside of that, it’s always nice to know that there’s a community of wanna be thrifters out there just like me growing every day.
So, what you need to know is that I am back. Twice a month, every month so help me Mother Earth!
As always, thank you for staying, reading and sharing. 🙂